20 Oct Origins that Reach From the Roots Above –

I won’t pretend as if this speed of cycling has not taken its toll on me. For this road of unkept promises and injustice that has extended beyond trails I have yet to even reach – have long since begun to get beneath my skin. Like height being measured since an infant, I know my worth was being counted as well. Placed on a scale that was created to spill at any moment whether or not the cell I dwell in now would be of any significance or not. I have taken bigger risks since that time, and I have taken even larger falls. Yet the moment of clarity, the moments of light..the moments of bliss, are of some tiny and minuscule fragment – as if they were always meant to be nothing but a glitch in time, something that would have to be checked and seen to never take place again.

Since awakening to darker sleeps, and closer fates, I have always known what my soul desires and where my heart resigns. For in a place In Between I have since been, yet now of much greater scales. On this road, I have walked for so long, the very road that has lead me to this place, the road that has lead me to now rediscover what I have since forgotten since the exile, what has escaped from me during various sleeps. It is now, on this day, while my head remains fixed on the Roots that reach to me from above – I now begin to desire fires. Wildfires, fires that will catch grasp of the branches that beckon below and burn it all to cinders.  For even now, as I rediscover this all, I know that I am no longer the same as I once was, that some cycles have been cut – and more vicious and dangerous ones have been birthd. 

I will soon start embers, as I begin to shift my focus to what lies below. For what reaches from above speaks words of unavoidable fates and failures that were always meant to be, and a curse – oh a curse that has for so long been brought upon me. This is an Age of Shadows, and I have slowly become a shadow myself – echoing something much greater, yet failing time after time to take form. And all shadows fade, all shadows soon turn to nothing but darkness – for during the darker hours when light is forbidden, all that remains unformed will be turned to black.