01 Apr To Fall & Rise

When I had spoken on the end-game, I had referred to the end of this path, the end of a cycle, of wars spanning throughout eras and love that had been broken. I spoke of the end of this journey, and the closings of the lines of times that so often wrap me up and engulf all that I am, silently in the night. But this all goes without saying that still, I know very little of what lies ahead, of what lies beyond all of this.

As I speak to you now, I speak to you in a voice of truth. For the lies that have been told to me have been spewed and stretched for far too long. These lies, lines in essence, are also soon to be cut. I have fallen once again, and with my tired eyes I remain remorseful for my apparent powerlessness from the forces which seek to bound me here so. But it is in this realization, that I now know, that I will continue to rise, I will continue to fight, until my heart cannot fight any longer.

There is much left for me here, yet with very little time remaining, I must begin to move quickly despite my lack of strength and energy, and continue to move forward. For there, love had been lost, and I knew it that very moment, as I lay sprawled out on the floor boards, soon standing on some cold and empty platform within some vast and barren station. This cold I have never truly forgotten, it haunts my very core during the darkest hours, but even when it swallows me whole; by the grace of some mysterious God, some mysterious force, I am able to escape, to Rise again.

And so as you could imagine, that is where I stand now. I no longer wish to be haunted by these cold winds, by the stern voice of some strange voice hissing vigorous words of exile. I will learn the truth, and I will finish what I have started. And though the truths and lies that may cross my path may break my very core and penetrate my very soul as I tread, I know it will have not have been in vain. For I fought for others in the past, countless others, but somehow, someway the darkness came back to find me – the shadows, for in their it has been safe. But during this time, I now partake in a war that has been raging on for eras, a war that I must win. A war to reclaim my heart, mind, and soul, from the very essence which stole them from me eras ago. For this, I cannot allow me fallen self to remain staggered, to remain shiftless. For this, I must Rise again.