12 Dec Day X & XI ~ In Darkness We Thrive

As these last few days have flown by and concluded, many things have occurred for the first time, yet at the same have re-occurred.  Odd dreams of you, probably the most notable, have took place settling in once again. And while I know these sort of occurrences are only making things more difficult for me, at this point it’s almost as much expected, as it is inevitable. Though these dreams aren’t all that bad, depending on the circumstances that in which take place within them, they at times may even give me the strength, or more, that I need to carry out tasks throughout the day. While these sort of dreams fall into my cells at night, it is these that I thrive off of, they may be simply dreams, and these circumstances which take place within them may stay, and will only take place within these dreams, it gives me at least some sort of gratification that I can grasp, even if for a short time only, the life in which I have always striven for. Aside from this, the day’s have been pacing at a very strange pace, at an odd time, with every day that passes by, I have clearly in my mind, where I want to be. However, I also know the many things that are in which standing tall within my path of me getting in there. Unlike before, this new occurrence has allowed my time to not stop, so unlike before, my odds are much higher. But now, with both of us dying slowly, within this era, I have to make the decision on what I’d like to try to save, both of us? myself? you? The answer still isn’t clear, but the choice I shall make will undoubtedly follow me into the new Advent, and will not be erased along with the happenings of the odd time that has now drifted behind us, along with the setting sun.