18 Dec Day XVI & XVII ~ Absence Path

It all should have really could not have come to me any sooner, yet at the same time, I knew these decisions which are brought before my eyes now, are decisions in which I knew had to be made all along before proceeding into the new Advent. The current era, and the eras before brought countless struggle, pain, and anguish, many of those things have been mysteriously erased, locked away, never to be present, until now. For perhaps maybe these things were not gone after all? Perhaps these things, were the very shadow in which stalked, and followed me so through the Cavern Walls, and throughout the Plains, even onward into the land of Castles. You have always been a staple, a portal, and a trigger in which many things happened. And now, the option to erase every last trace, and fragment of you will soon be presented to me. Too truly start anew, is a great gift, but to start alone, could be a greater gift, or a nightmare in disguise. Though my heart will forever hang on, with a mind of it’s own, I have been assured that the torment will only continue forever into Eternity, unless I am to loose this heart of mine either to something far more greater, but at this time, it sees this as beyond impossible. I know continuing these promises to old, for something that is perhaps dying, and fading rapidly could only be damaging, but in the end, is it worth it? The new era will only tell.