20 Dec Day XVIII & XIX ~ Oaths

In reality, the promises in which I made and the promises in which I didn’t keep, were in fact the ones that led me down the trail to the very exile  in which in faster time, shall end soon. But now, I am left dreaming, of what could have been, and what is possible, these are only dream of course, and whether or not the fates will align in some mysterious ways to allow such dreams to come to reality again. But at this point, this is nothing more than an impossible happening. Despite all of this, I shall soon, and for the first and final time, begin not promises, but Oaths, Oaths of some new light, in a new Advent, and though all may be shattered, those sacred moments, thoughts and feelings, it may plague me forever. If only you truly knew what I’d be willing to give, but unfortunately, my soul is not worthy enough to be received for such sacrifice. The era shall very soon reach is darkest hour, and while thoughts and decisions are now rapidly beginning to come closer together, the next stepping stone seems to become clearer. Freedom to all, no more barriers, my sacrifice, perhaps truly a newer life. One in which the collapse could not offer, but only true suffering could.