06 Sep Different Directions

It’s only been roughly 3 months since your odd disappearance, and since I’ve heard your echoes on and off throughout my tire-some days. In all honesty, it’s been very hard to keep up with my strategy of focus with these echoes invading my ears, and triggering odd flashes in my mind which often take be aback. But then again, all they really are, are just echoes. Things that once were, simply bouncing off objects, and walls at strange angels, at strange forces, all somehow making their way back to me. I often try to brush it off, and remain hopeful regarding the situation, just like I’ve done with almost everything in this advent. But since your disappearance, I’ve frequently been thinking about the different directions in which I could take. Pleasing others is something I’m clearly not so good at, I could please myself, but that’s to simplistic, to self-centered. And besides, no matter how obvious it is, she’s is gradually passing away, I just don’t want to mention it, but I cannot help but be reminded that life is something more than the many lives in front of my are walking today, you said, “Life is short, but mines is shorter” and that literally shot me like an arrow. I’m pretty close to loosing my mind, and October will be here soon..