18 Jul Last Chances

The currents and waves within this place have begun to move much similar like the times of the exile. For things have become to darkened and violent that I feel my time here must now come to an end, for this place of some In Between state seeks to swallow me up further; as it’s shadows grow at an uncontrollable rate. The information that these city lights bestowed upon me are of a future I feel is entirely out of reach, yet, this place speaks otherwise. For ever since the Cavern Walls the home I have sought to find has not yet surfaced, and even now I fear it may never exist.

The choices that I have made and the oaths that I have once took and broken have now lead me into a place and state much darker than anything I have ever been of and in before. For now, things have begun to set a course based upon my actions and now the reactions have begun to be implemented. For now that I am in acceptance of this fate that may become, I shall now participate in this coming war that is at hand; for it is my final chance to reclaim the futures that are said to await me following this place. And I have been warned to not fight in this coming war alone, I know that it must be me that shall put an end to the chaos and cycles that spin here in such a violent pace.

Even now, just fathoming the battles that are soon to be – leaves my body, heart, and mind in such an aching state. For was this all meant to become of what was all once lost? The undying side of me which seeks to fight and bestow light upon this place is now in a stance where it seeks to strike, yet another only wishes for the peaceful rest it has not had since the beginning of all this madness. I am now left wondering who is in fact in the right? War, you have never truly looked so appetizing, and while I know you are unhealthy to the soul – you are ultimately inevitable at this point. For if I am to lose to you the paradox will surely occur, and all I could never imagine shall take place. Perhaps it would be for the best? Perhaps not; however, that is no longer my concern now. For I have lost much along with past, including everything I had once held dear. And with that, I know the only thing I have left to lose now is myself; a self which has been fragmented across lands and spaces where shadows are beginning to touch.

With this is mind, I begin to take my leave from this place of final chances, and decisions. For my decision to fight has been made. Those who join along the way shall join, and those who leave shall leave. For I know during the final hours of this era, it will be I that must fight the final fight and deliver the final blow. None other shall take my place, none other shall put themselves in harms way. For now to become mightier, to become swifter and wiser, I must look towards a higher force, a lord perhaps that seeks the same futures as I. So further towards the center I go, as the line I had once tread begins to fade to black, only shadows of what once was – remaining.