27 Oct Projection || ~ The Wondering

Throughout the ages I have solemnly felt the feeling of swift, peaceful release. It is a grace that quickly glides over all that I am and embraces me to the core. It comes at the end of every darkened thought that passes through the stations of my mind, it glimmers within the irises of every person I have ever set eyes on, it seeps through the windows seals of my darkened room during the darkest hours of every night, it forces it’s way through the spaces and seams between the walls of this house; this place that is no longer my own. And now I, in a state between bravery and desperation, have sought to court this grace in it’s essence. 

At the end of everyday, the thoughts return to my mind, is it true what they once told me? Will I truly experience it all again?  For the force that once burned brightly within me has now begun to lose control, damaging it’s home and dampening it’s strength. For during these new days of Trials and Twilight’s, my strength and will has begun to run low in the desperation to finally break free of this place. To finally choose a side. It was warned to me that this path would be a long one, and despite my wondering, somehow I know that if I am to continue on – so will all of this.