28 May When Our Shadows Lead

Things have begun to resurface here like something I have never seen before. This city of desperate times and ultimate measures whispers words of encouragement to me in such gracefulness I would have thought it to be the whispers of the winds that had swept across the Plains I had once tread, so long ago. It is due to these very whispers now in the present that have brought forth reverberations and visions of cycles that I had once left behind, shortly before the first departure.

Before the exile, I held a brave heart, a wild heart ; a heart that yearned for knowledge, love, and danger all mixed into one. The heart I held then had only one main goal, and one treasure. Both of were destined to be swept away beneath vigorous waves within violent seas. But now, in these critical times of final chances, and last strides; shadows of what I once held, who I once was – have begun to appear to me in strange and mysterious ways.

The Shadows of the present that seek to guide me desire only freedom. They promise of the imminent day, only moments before the birth of a glorious and new dawn, where I will be bestowed a deliverance that I had sought out for eras now. These shadows see no other direction that is worth taking, and wait patiently for my resistance to fail along with all my efforts; so they can ultimately guide me, without force, towards the freedom that so openly and freely awaits. However now, it seems that my heart holds hope for something more.

For so long I have felt I have been stuck here, in the In Between; awaiting the moment I spot the exit lights that will lead me to where you dwell. But alas, whispers tell me that I am still far from that time, that the chances that I take now will ultimately determine whether or not an exit will be found. For as long as there is conflict here, and for as long as shadows reign; I will be forced to continue onward, making decisions that trace and write my every lines; which may or may not lead to the freedom this shadow of new wishes for me and my entirety.